Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.
-You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible
day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the
door, and take out that
suicide note you've written and rewritten
over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for the
very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying
down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the
very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your
door to come tell you dinners ready. you don’t answer, so he walks in.
All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He
tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your
room to wake you up. She
notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it.
Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your
brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and
sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom,
crying, holding the letter to
her chest, sitting next to your
lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams
and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he
starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding
each other, crying.
The next day at school, there’s an
announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a
few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent.
Everyone blames themselves.
Your teachers think they were too hard
on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve
said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he
can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you
really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told
everything to,
that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts
crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too,
wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they
could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend?
She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going
through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough
for
you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up,
walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking,
screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your
funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the
bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for
them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good
memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your
little brother still doesn't know you killed yourself, he’s too young.
Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big
sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend,
she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start
lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and
cries and doesn't stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school
talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all
quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy
that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how
to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls.
Your friends all
go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She
didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried… your brother? He finally
found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night,
he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your
parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to
distract himself from your death. Your mum got diagnosed with depression
and justlays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but
they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t
end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if
you give up. I’m here for absolutely
anyone that needs to talk, no
matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for you.
Copy and paste this as your status to show people there are people out
there that care. Yes, I definitely care.
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