Unforgettable Childhood story

My life is simple... something do the right and sometime do wrong...but here I wan to say about my childhood memories. The true is I don’t really know or remember 100% about my childhood story because its a lost page of me... so here I want to share about my life in Melaka city. My father is a male nursing that time before transfer here Sandakan as a Blood donor assistant. So yes... we are living in Melaka. So when I’m still a 6 year old I’m school at Chinese school. So that why I cam speak Chinese and my face like Chinese boy...(-_-)LOL. What I cannot forgot about this school is the food...I don’t say its delicious but its so horror!!!Euik!!!(o.O)I don’t like the noodles they serve its like they put some soap inside it...I will give the noodle that I still don’t know what the noodle name its to my best friends. Name? I don’t know...I don’t remember. Hahaha...He will help me eat that horror noodles. One thing I still remember is I don’t know my real name...Hahaha...silly me LOL. That day all students must go to counter and get their own ID students. So I say to the teacher”Miss where is my ID students?”I asking...”check here “say the teacher give me the list. In my mind...”Where is my name? I can’t find it?” that time my Bus is coming and my friends say” Gary, can you faster? The driver wans to go now!” Suddenly I’m start crying(T-T)...The teacher say”What your name?” ”My name is Gary”I say. “So here is only Garystilson Dison,so its that your name?”The teacher asking again. Stupid I’m say “No...my name is Gary that not my name...”I’m still crying..hahaha. One of my teacher is coming and asking what happen and my teacher start laught.”Your name is Garystilson Dison...Gary only your short name..hahaha”Its funny to think that about. What more I like living in Melaka is my family like going to vacation. Sometimes we going to Zoo, Cameron highland, water park, orang hutan, butterflies land, and more but now in Sandakan...Nothing!(-_-) Another  else is when I’m playing whit my friend and Im still remember her name “Pei Yee” Chinese girl that always play with me. One day when we playing a game she hit me at my head. First I don’t know what happen. Suddenly the blood flowing on my head. I don’t feel pain and I just go home and say “Daddy my head is wound,” My daddy see its really my head are much blood on it.OMG!But its true I don’t feel hurt. What else I wan to share...ok the last part is When my family and church going to beach and my Big brother get wounded on his foot.  His foot wounded by rusty nails. But the true is I don’t know my Big brother at hospital that time because Im enjoying the beach. Hei...don’t get wrong ok Im still child that time...and I don’t know anything...hahaha...The End

MAGICAL FOREST (The Missing Page Story)

Here the story....

Sarah saw a very strange behavior of Odin, and is only able to mute herself ...
Odin began to sing ... "The light of the rose flower shine you light ... The light of the Lily flower shine you light... because the time for sleeping is over ... Arise" said Odin. Suddenly the light began to illuminate the flowers in the garden ... so beautiful in the eyes of Sarah to see it. The flowers begin to move as if it was dancing with Odin. Suddenly, small creature in every flower is showing and coming out. "Oh, it was fairies" said Sara. The fairy looked so cute and they singing with Odin. "Come, O ye fairies dancing in joy." Odin said. "O beautiful river water flow with radiation beautiful you ... that is why you look so beautiful" Odin singing again. Suddenly, group of water creatures such as women show and they are water maidens. They began to dance over the water. Sarah was fascinated with the beauty of the maidens. Once again Odin singing "O trees that are in the forest ... dance with me because my songs are very cheer" trees in the forest began to sway and emerge a few young boys dressed as trees are playing in the trees, while there are a women playing a musical instruments with Harp. They are very happy and dancing to sing together. "Look at our friends ... Sara ... her name ... she was sick ... cure Sara, my friends my friends" Odin singing. Suddenly, the fairy heading toward to Sara and dancing the whole Sara body. Sarah was initially feared, but it knows that fairies are not evil. The fairies light help Sara wound healing. Sara was happy. Maiden of water began to come to Sara and she held her hand and took sustenance dance together. "Dance ... dance Sara Sara ... throw all your pain in your hearts .." Odin said while dancing and singing. Sarah happily dancing together with the water maidens. Suddenly the wind blew the whole body of Sara and she ascended to a place like fairy trees and sit by the maiden side. Sara is very impressed with the beauty of the maidens. Maiden smiled to Sara and pillow on her lap and started playing music that is melodious so very sleepy retirement ... so beautiful ... that so happy for Sara...

role playing

by deepian   from impressions

In life we all have roles. Sometimes these roles are necessary functions, but often we are just play acting unnecessarily.

It is one thing to perform a necessary function, and quite another to play a role that you have identified yourself with. For example, a mother has the role of looking after her child, and this is a necessary function. But if the mother becomes too identified with that role, then she gets stuck in it. She then cannot let go of the role when it is no longer relevant or useful. So, when the child grows up and becomes a teenager, she still behaves as if the child were small. She still tries to control and protect, when it is no longer appropriate to do so. This can continue even when the child has become adult.

When you adjust the way you interact with others, then you are role playing. If you talk to children differently, or your boss differently, or your friends differently, then you are acting out a role, rather than being true to yourself. To stop doing this, You have to first recognise what you are doing. Observe yourself. Once you have awareness of your role playing, you then have the ability to stop doing it.

People often want to know what we do, rather than who we are, or what we believe. They want to see if we can be of use to them. They want to find out if they can play their role with us. Many judgments go through people's minds automatically when they meet someone. You can avoid them labelling you with a role, by simply answering "I am". With care, you can actually talk quite normally about yourself, without identifying yourself with a role.

You can perform a role without identifying with that role. The problem is when you behave and act as if it that is who or what you are. You then get trapped inside a conditioned personality, and that personality acts out in everything you do.

For example, a doctor, who is playing the role of doctor, often doesn't see his patient as a person. He has become so identified with his function that the function has taken him over, and he has become a role. His patients no longer feel acknowledged in their beingness. He might be very competent as a doctor, but something vital is lacking in the interaction. And his patients feel completely dismissed and disconnected.

When you embrace presence in your life, and live increasingly in the moment, your awareness of your conditioned behaviour patterns will grow. At first, you may only notice what you have done after the event. You may play a certain conditioned role, and identify that role as being you, but afterwards you realise: "hey, I did it again, I played that role again".

As you work on being more present and aware, the time gap between the event and the awareness gets shorter. After a while you will realize that you are playing a role even whilst you are still in the middle of it. Finally, the awareness will be there before you even enter into the conditioned pattern. Then, when you feel that impulse inside, to play the unnecessary role, you can stop yourself from doing it.

You are a spiritual being playing roles in a human body. Be aware of your role playing. See your roles for what they are. They are just roles. They are not you. Do not identify with these roles. Do not become attached to them. They are only roles. Relinquish them, when they no longer serve a purpose.

Movie story of A picture is worth a thousand words

Movie story that need to me continue...
Male : Adam
Female : Lisa
Female brother : Brother John
I not really like to do "Happy Ending" but more like "Happy Sad Ending"...hahaha...
so here its is....

Adam is waiting and keeps waiting news from the women that lose her camera. He never turns off his hand phone and make sure it’s never turn off. “Silly him”. Sometimes Adam feels like want to give ups and thinking he will never find this women. In a few weeks later, the phone suddenly rang.  Adam quickly picked it up and answers it and expects the woman call. "Hello, there is Mr. Adam?" Adam faces suddenly change and he so disappointment is not the woman who calls him. But a man. "Yes, it's me." Adam said. "Oh, thank you because you have giving my sister camera back. She always expected someone to be able to return It." said the man. Adam was surprise, apparently it was his call he waiting for. "Er ... you welcome..." said Adam.”Can I ask? How your sister is? What she's doing now? If may, allow me to see her?" This question made ​​Adam heart pounding. "Mr. Adam ..." the man replied. "Yes ..." Adam feel really scared. "Can we meet? Maybe you can go to Boston tomorrow. Are you there spare time?" the man answered and asked. Without thinking anything, Adam continues to agree with that encounter. "Okay, I will meet you in front of the train terminal Boston." the man said ...
                The next day as usual Adam wants to Boston and his heart pounding. And he expects something encouraging to her life. A few hours later, Adam got to Boston and he headed out than the train terminal. Seems a brown-haired man with his black carriage being waved towards him. "It's definitely the woman's brother" Adam thinking and moving towards him. "Mr. Adam?" he asked. "Yes I am." Adam said. They shake hands and introduce themselves respectively. "I am the man who calling you yesterday. My name Johnny and just call me John" the man said warmly. "Mr. Adam, can I take you to the cafe for a while. Perhaps you in the tired." John invited Adam to a nearby cafe. "Excuse me, John ... you can just call me Adam" Adam was awkward to call Mr. John took Adam to a country Cafe near the terminal. They just order drinks coffee and chat. "Adam, what are you doing now? And age you how? To stay?" asked John like policeman. Adam replied cautiously so as not to make John angry. "I am now working in a company as engineering and I’m 25 ... I live alone and live around New York City." John drinking his coffee. "Lisa ..." Suddenly John said. Adam looked at John and thinks who’s that is. "Lisa was my sister that you would like to see." john said. Adam just found out that her name is Lisa. "Where is she now?" Adam smiled. But John face suddenly changed. "John ... what happened?" Adam asked. John saw Adam with a miserable and began his story ... about an hour they were at the Cafe. The weather suddenly became overcast. Adam's eyes and mouth look stiff and his face in surprise. John just keeps quiet. "Adam, can I take you to Lisa?" John invited Adam to meet with Lisa

                After paying their drinks, John and Adam go into the car and to go meet with Lisa. During their way, Adam and John just keep quiet and not talk to much. But we can see their faces very gloomy and sad at the same time. John brings Adam to the hospital in Boston city. When they arrive, John brought Adam up to the third floor and took Adam to a room that is only for private patients. John knocked on the door and went in and seen a woman who was sitting in the room while holding a camera. After a few minutes John went out and asked Adam to come inside. "Adam, come in. Lisa wan to see you." said John. Adam began its move into the patient's room. He saw a woman who he would like to meet. Yes, he is Lisa. Lisa's face was pale, her hair is straight, and her dress is white and her face lit by sunlight but not as strong. Although her face was still sore, Lisa still can draw a smile on Adam. "Are you Adam, right? Man who was in the train?" Lisa asked. "Yes ..." Adam replied in a gentle tone.. "I am so delighted to meet you." said Lisa. "I feel very happy to. Finally I’m also able to meet you ... Lisa" Adam said. "This is really embarrassing ... I was at the hospital and just sat there without serving you any" Lisa said, and smiling. "It is not! Just to see you I'm very happy!" Adam said with a strong tone. Lisa see the behavior of Adam, she started to laugh even though not as strong and also Adam. Adam and Lisa talking within one day and they seem like a close friend. In fact, Lisa has health problems that only can give her time for 3 years to live and this year is the year and last month for Lisa to live. That's why Lisa always brings camera to collect the sweet memories of her day and where ever her go. John hopeful Adam can expect with Lisa for several months. Adam agreed to the John offer. Within a few months, Adam and Lisa spent time together as they took pictures together, walk together, celebrate John's birthday together, and memories is something that is very meaningful for him. However, Adam had to go back to work because the company really need it. "Lisa ... I will back ... I’m promise" Adam said. "I will waiting you Adam ..." Lisa said. "Promise" Adam said Lisa, holding hands. "Yes, promise" Lisa answered with a smile. Before Adam went to leave Lisa, they take the picture together. Adam returned to work within 3 days. But Adam did not have to forget to call Lisa.

                Adam was happy, and finally his work was completed. He goes his way alone to Boston that day. Adam call Lisa "Lisa ... I’m going to Boston today" said Adam. "Really, I was very happy ..." said Lisa. "Lisa flowers that you like? I can drop into the flower shop for a while." Adam asked as he took the train Lisa. "Thank you, Adam, can you buy me a lily flower. I like it" Lisa said. After a few hours, Adam arrived at Boston and he buy Lily's flower for Lisa. But in fact, Adam has another desire. On that day, he would like to propose to Lisa. Arrived in the hospital, Adam looked very happy and he saw John was sitting outside the door of Lisa. John looks like it is crying. Adam was very frightened if there is happen to Lisa. Adam approached John and he asked me about it. "John ... why? What is happening?" Said Adam. "Lisa ... she ... had to go Adam" John said, weeping. The flowers that Adam holding is fall to floor. His eyes suddenly burning and tears fall even though he wanted durable it. He can not seem to believe. Lisa had gone just like that ...
                A few months later, Adam underwent his life as usual. As soon as he is at home, he see there is a box. He opened it. Apparently the package was from John. Adam opened, there are a  photo album in side the box. He opened it and he was very touched to the pictures ... they are memories that he was with Lisa together. Adam to see and appreciate the photos was ... he like want to cry. on the last page there are a letter and the content is like this ...
"Adam, I’m sorry for being unable to fulfill the promise ... the possibility, when you read this letter ... I have not in this world ... In this three years... memories of you and me is a memorable that I will never forgot ... it was like a property that is worth of money or wealth ... I was happy with you Adam ... I hope one day we can unite our destiny if we are born again ... but do not you grieve over my departure ... From Lisa "
 

Adam cried, and he sat on a chair and opened the back of their photo albums ... The End

A picture is worth a thousand words

What is "A picture is worth a thousand words"???The meaning is a complex idea that we want to conveyed  with just a single still image. So I agree with this. But sometimes different people have their own idea and their own thoughts. For you, what can you able to see in this picture? Its Happiness, sadness, poverty, orphan or family? Or maybe you wan to say this child is dirty, smelly, idiot, or disgusted? So you have you own thought ya... So for me this child is not dirty, disgusted, or smelly. But I can say this child is so “PURE”... Why I say this? Can you look at this child eyes, I don't really see any dirt on it. What can I say is I can see a pure jewel that shinning on those eyes. Can you see it? Those eyes are show use something. It wan to show about a “World of Wonder” and this pure child maybe probably has lost it...Its about the hope of dream. Can you see its? Why this child taking the keyboard?...keyboard?...do this child know about keyboard? A piano? This child even don’t know about piano look like...What we can see is, this child is dreaming about something that we never will know...This child is playing with a dream with his innocent play...For the last world, what I can say maybe this child will always hopeful someday they will never be this again and someday there will have a happiness for them...